hydra
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Post by hydra on Apr 13, 2010 15:40:03 GMT -5
Hey everyone! Long story but last year of my life has been very stressful....several life changes. A lot of things contributed to my breakdown, work, home life, extended family that are toxic and my bf going back on the wagon and not being committed to living without alcohol, or pain pills.
Anyway, I should be returning to work next week. I am taking medication to calm my mania (I have a form of bipolar disorder called unipolar mania), eating healthy (my pdoc says eat and eat and this upsets me because I have lost 50 pounds since August), spending time with friends just listening to music or talking, try not to smoke too many cigs, chiiilllllll is the word of the day.
It is hard to explain what I just went through.....maybe like an acid trip, but not just a tab...more like the whole sheet. This mania trip lasted about 18 days and was frightening...I got very paranoid, angry, violent, delusional...downright nasty, I sent horrible emails to people...uh, had to delete my facebook but I never liked that site anyway.
Good news is I have good psychiatrist, a good therapist and very good support from friends in person and online friends. Hope to catch up with all of you soon.
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Post by Denethor on Apr 13, 2010 22:20:54 GMT -5
I'll keep this short as it took six tries to get my Good Morning post in place, and I want to make sure this one goes through. I've been wondering how you were doing and it is very good to hear from you. It's sad that you had a break but, as we both (all) know, it could have been way worse, and you are now coming out the other side of it...I'll do the 'send energy" thing if you like (though if it's unipolar mania probably "send calm" is a better way to think)...keep in touch here, or in email, you know you have my support as well. Dang but eating is always an issue one way or the other with psych things isn't it? If your apetite doesn't go out or become monstrous on its own, then your medication will do it, etcetera, the upshot is you always end up having to think about food, amirite? And if it's not food, then it's sleep. Damned pain. I wish you much help and luck in managing it all! Hope to continue hearing from you.
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hydra
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Post by hydra on Apr 19, 2010 23:15:39 GMT -5
Doing ok, yesterday was my first day back at work. I was very unhappy with the way my boss treated me. She does not understand my illness, she has no clue, even though she is also in the bipolar realm. Doesn't matter, I am just going to focus on work and if I am not happy with it at the end of the year, I can always look for something else......thanks for your thoughts and calmness
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Post by Denethor on Apr 20, 2010 19:00:32 GMT -5
... I was very unhappy with the way my boss treated me. She does not understand my illness, she has no clue, even though she is also in the bipolar realm... Yeah, that can be frustrating; even "experience" with one aspect of mental distress doesn't necessarily mean you grok the others. My experience, for instance, is with atypical depression, anxious type; sometimes called "Bipolar II" which is how I can claim the bipolar label at all. It doesn't contain any mania. I have never experienced a true manic phase. In my case, though, I at least know I wouldn't really understand; I am not hampered by the notion that having had depression means I have any knowledge of mania, or of psychosis, or of sociopathy, or of anything else that I haven't had. They don't all come in the same toolkit, folks, and the notion that one "gets it" about someone else's road simply because one's own has been difficult is almost as infuriating as the notion some people have that having had one mental condition makes you somehow more susceptible to all the others. Hope you can get through to her, and if you can't, good luck either (a) making the best of it or (b) finding a new meal ticket, eventually.
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